I am on leave!! and will not be found. Never been more excited. Looking fwd to my trips and gatherings wif all my frens~ Hee... =) Gonna be away for a while, a break frm work and all.... *excited*

Super excited recently and here's why:

1. 5 days to my leave at last!! The past 5 mths was a blur. i have no idea how i went through all the shit at work and in life and still manage to be carefree and happy. This is gonna be a well deserved break!! Can't wait!!

2. GSS is here. Nothing beats retail therapy. *Hearts*

3. I have decided not to bother myself with things tt have yet to happen. Just take things as they come and at the end of the day, i only need to ans to myself. I cannot please everyone.

4. Taiwan trip is coming!! Oh my, super excited! All the food and shopping~ but gonna be damn broke sia... hmm...

5. Right after taiwan is promotion and bonus period!! (Jul 2) woohooo~ and the speculation of another round of pay revision on top of the normal pay rise.. Hope it is true!! *fingers crossed*

6. After bonus = exciting period. To see how many ppl will tender~ haha and the possibility of myself throwing the letter too. hohoho....

7. The last Harry Potter book is gonna be out!! *excited* and the movie too~

8. Happy 23rd Bday to me!!

9. Chance to go overseas for audit? hmms... but no concrete plans as yet. may hold back the letter cos of this? dunnoe??

10. I'm so happy that no amount of shit in the next 3 working days is gonna spoil my mood.

i noe it is not my fault... but somehow i feel responsible. i question myself, why should i be responsible for sins that i didn commit?? esp when i should actually be the one who is crying? why why why?? all becos my character is stronger?? jus becos i am cleverer?? or is it jus becos i jus noe you too well... and that i am willing to accept u the way u are? how silly can one get? to make ur problem my problem? to solve ur problem? to go thru shit tt is suppose to be urs? to help someone and yet feel guilty? i noe i asked for this. if only i learnt not to ask. i was suppose to learn!!! it happened once but yet i made the same mistake again... why why why?? a thousand and one whys. with only one ans: i had to prove myself right.

why can't i jus accept tt my 6th sense is always right? i had to confirm. frens has always been my weakest spot. i know it. but yet i allowed myself to get involved. everytime i try to help, things turn bad. i am truely trying to help. i wanted you to know the truth. to wake up from ur dream. but i could not do it when i saw how devasted you were. both of u mean alot to me. i cannot spoil your image, neither can i break ur heart. i chose to comfort you as though i din noe anything. it was really hard... but this is all i can do for u. i hope u understand. i noe when u noe the truth, u will blame me. i will too if i were in ur shoes. but i hope you understand. i cannot tell u the whole truth. u are not able to take it. hence i chose to do wad i thought is the best for u. i tried to tell u the truth. i really did. i hinted many times. but ur reaction confirmed that you could not take it. so i could not bear to tell u the truth.

i noe it is your fault. but yet i dun blame you and still chose to share it with u. i dunno why. i jus didn want to spoil ur image. i dun wan u to look bad. so i decided to do it my way. to console you as a fren and not let u noe the truth. becos of this, the ending will not be wad i want. i know. but i still did it. i dunno why. i noe i am the ultimate victim and i should be angry.. but somehow, i am not angry. neither am i sad. neither am i worried. somehow i noe things will work out if we face it tgt. i guess this is my character. always positive.

dun ask me wad this is all abt.. pls. writing is my way to compose my thoughts. and to help myself think. i can't tok abt it for the good of the two ppl tt i treasure. and for those who noe, pls dun bring it up or mention it to anyone. thanks! i will be fine... cos i always will be, tt's me...

Its really amazing how even though it has been one whole year since we arrived in Morey's i am still unable to forget the place, the people and the memories... i can still vividly remember the "watch the tram car pls", "always a winner, always a prize"... all the little things that remains with me... it was really an unique experience to be a ride operator, and i will never regret my decision to try.

Advanture Pier is no doubt the best pier!!! *hearts* So what if we are the smallest? We are like one big happy family. Everyday feels like as though we are coming home and not tt we are gg to work. Tiring but we were always supportive of each other... awwwss.. *hugs*

At the snake wif my baby... *hearts*

Great White!! Undoubtedly my favourite ride in the whole of Moreys. Although working on the white is really tiring, having to deal with dumb ppl who dunno how to buckle their seat belts (and still wanna insist they do and waste my time waiting), idiots who dun understand wad is "no loose articles". But it was really fun to irritate the operator by not standing in our yellow box. hahaha... "zen, yellow box" haha... i miss sam and pam!! not forgetting, the thumbsup and"all clear, dispatch" use to hear that like a hundred times a day? so funny... and the blur me can give the thumbsup and forget to press the dispatch button!! haha..

Not forgetting the unforgetable rescue!! Imagine the train was stuck here (see arrow):

Yups, it was THAT high. and we had to walk up to rescue the ppl stuck in the train!! SUPER tiring and scary! And i think i walked up like 4 times?? Experience of a lifetime. and the view up there is MAGNIFICENT!! oh rite, it was suppose to be a rescue mission, but... the view was really fantabulous~ hohoho

the downside? numberous blue-blacks!! cos we have to bend dwn to buckle up ppl, and to unhook stuck lap bars, and yet be efficient. so bumping here and there is SO common. even forgot the number blue-blacks i got. hohoho. and the muscleaches! haha... still remember the times we reach home and start screaming my way up the stairs cos my legs are aching!! Oh well, it was still fun cos i had these wonderful frens~

The inverter.. my first ride in Moreys... Still remember the day i got such a bad cramp cos i was stepping on the foot padel the whole damn day! sighs... But, as the zhang men of the ride, i should love my ride!! haha... seriously i really feel i am bonded to the ride, like how it will always breakdwn when i am not around?? haha... getting BHB again... but seriously i feel so leh. it is always breaking dwn!! maybe even non-living things have feelings??

But this ride never fails to make my blood boil!! Americans are dumb! let me say this again!! they dunno how to listen to instructions sia... tell them NOT to pull the harness, dun listen. tell them the seat is spoilt, dun listen. so pull the harness at the spoilt seat and wad do u get?? one stuck guest. sighs.. no wonder the ride spoils all the time. and it doesn help tt this is the next best ride in AP, after the white. so you can imagine how many times a day i feel like stranggling ppl!! hoho

oh and look at the control panel!! who said it was an easy job?? must remember when and which button to press one hor... press the wrong one and the ride will stall one ok!! hahaha

Sighs... super super miss those carefree times... beats my current job anytime sia..

I call this post enjoying the moment. Thanks babe for making me realise that i am much stronger than i think i am... and for shedding light on wad i want. Yups, you are so right about enjoying the moment. i guess when it comes to a point where you are just circulating about the same point, it is best to just enjoy the moment. cos either way you will still be stuck. so why not yar, jus enjoy the moment. hees...

yups so i will learn to enjoy the moment and gain experience from wadever i do. anyways there will always be people to comfort me and guide me when things go wrong. so just be happy!! at the end of the day wad happens will happen.

reminds me of Moreys all of a sudden!! maybe its cos i am soaked in the US mood again... cos every moment there was enjoyment! hehe... no worries, no burdens, no problems, jus having fun all day long... sighs... i miss the times there... working at advanture pier, the company, the fooling around, the trouble we caused, my rides, and yes, even screaming at stupid americans!! wahaha... those were the carefree days... now? all shit... blehs... but i shall learn to enjoy my shit. somehow. the best solution so far? Countdwn to my leave!!! which is in 2 weeks time... hohoho~ ultra excited!! finally a break after SO long...

I admit that the last 6 mths has flew past. i can hardly remember wad happened. maybe cos there was just too much shit, to the extent i jus choose to erase them from my memory. good choice i would say. hee... hoping that things will get better after my break... *crossed fingers*

Happy Mother's Day to all mummies!! hehes.. Hope everyone takes this opportunity to tell ur mummies how much you love them. it is not the presents that count but the little actions tt will touch mummy's heart! so no worries if you forgot to buy the present! haha...

To my mum, thank you for making me who i am today!! Thanks for always being there and giving me advice in my life. I love you mmy!

9th May 2006 - the day 3 gers started their wondeful journey to capture wondeful memories... time flies... its already one yr but it really seems like only yesterday as all the wonderful memories remains vivid in my mind...

Our home:


Messy gers... hehe =)


Our numerous cooking sessions! i swear my cooking skills improved after the 3 mths there. but now, lost touch liao. cooking is all abt the feeling mah... at home got mmy, no need to find feeling. hahahaha...

Our happy work place - Morey's Piers


Fun times in our uniforms... although work was crap, 12 hrs a day!! but we had wonderful company which made it nothing but FUN!! Miss everyone @ moreys!!

Our many road trips:

::Washington::

OMG!!! Can i not take the lift ever again?? Phobia!! Was rushing to meet my friend yesterday when the worst thing happened - the lift got stuck! Stuck there for like 45 mins?? at 1130pm!! Sobz... =( Didn't help that there were 7 other fat ppl in the lift. Guess the lift got stuck cos it was overloaded. idiot lor.. so fat still wanna all squeeze into the lift.(nope, i have nothing against fat ppl, just dunno why they cannot wait for the next one) and stupid lift. Overload the door still can close? Old lifts are just crappy!! the door jus closed and got stuck! which is totally dumb cans? think we only moved like 1/4 floor? cos i could still the feet of the ppl on my floor through the "window" of the lift.

and stupid maintenance ppl, take so long to come. 5 mins turned out to be 30. and another 15 to get us out!! somehow i wasn't scared or anything. i was just freaking hot!! and didn't help that the other ppl kept toking at the top of their lungs. sighs... no reception and all. i was lucky to even be able to call maintenance in the first place cos shortly after, my connection was off.. only can send msg to my poor fren waiting for me downstairs. haha.. exciting hors? somehow you are always there to witness the weird things that happen to me.

after the long wait, help was finally here. they lowered the lift to the first level. (dunno why din they jus do it on the 13th, saftey reasons??) but it wasn't really the first floor cos we hit the bottom bottom of the lift and when they opened the door, we had to climb out. oh my, when the door opened i was like totally melting lar!! never been so happy to see a familiar face in my whole life!! haha... very drama hors? and to think this whole event happened from 11.30pm to 12.15am? haha.. who said i had a boring life?

oh and i must say this!! my sister is damn HEARTLESS!! i msg her tt i was stuck in the lift and she didn't even bother to come out of the house to take a look! in fact, she jus msg me "then how" and never bothered to reply again. the WHOLE 45 mins tt i was stuck she didn't reply!! not even a msg to ask if i was ok, or have i gotten out! NOTHING. my whole family didn't bother (ok, maybe my sis didn't even bother to tell them). damn angry can? even my fren was bothered enough to come up and see how i was and called for help and all, but my family?? nothing lor... all jus bo chap. no call, no msg, no nothing. stupid sister, still got the cheek to tell me love deep deep. bullshit can?!?!! i am so not gg to be bothered abt u the next time anything happens to u. MARK MY WORDS!! wahahaa, i sound damn evil, but really lor, how can my sister not care at all? damn disappointed - and i mean it!

oh wells, but the whole things is jus an exciting event altogether, though i dun wanna go thru it again lar... stay away from old lifts k?? or maybe i should jus go on a diet so tt the lift will not be over loaded? haha. nono, i think its time to upgrade the lifts lar!! lousy lift.