Time really flies... its already the end of 2006! incredible yr... lots and lots of things happened and i think i have really changed and grew up alot...

The year started with my final semester in NTU. all the stress of handling FYP and 5 moduels... many many late nights just to produce that FYP report. Many thanks to my dearest roomie and darling! without u babes we would not have gotten our A!! hee... and not to forget the countless projects and being in the same group as my "best" fren for 311... Dar and bro, do not luff!! haha you guys noe wad i'm toking abt... *winkx*
Not forgeting the exams!! never been so stress in uni before... all the studying in NIE lib with my dearest ganag of gers!! without you gers who would be there to cheer me up frm the stress?? we really worked hard and in the end, it was all worth it cos i got my second upper! though it was quite unexpected, i am really happy, i mean who won't?? hee...

Not everything was smooth sailing though. 2006 was when i went through my second break-up. I dun regret my decision to be with you although i knew frm the start we won't be together. but at least i tried and that's wad matters... from you i learnt many things abt myself. did many things that i never thought i would do for any guy... i cried but i recovered quick. that's me. i'm sure i'm now stronger and now i noe i can actually put in effort to make things work... and this i will bring with me into my next relationship...

Going to the States on WAT was the best decision i've ever made. and it is through this trip that i learnt that i have two very wonderful frens. even though we quarelled like shit, we are still as close now! Incredible!! haha... and the new frens made there i will never forget. although it was jus a short 2 mths together there, i will always remember each and every one of u there. i think i have really matured alot from this trip. learning to be independent and working out differences with others, accepting differences and learning to survive in a foreign land. all this i believe i would never have achieved if i didn't go on this trip. I miss the states!! i wanna go back!! hee...

Then came the stun of the year during my convo!! I actually woke up at 1.50pm when my convo was at 2pm?!?! INSANE!! i almost cried when i woke up and saw the time. the no of missed calls on my phone was like 20?? haha... and miraculously, i still made it up on stage to receive my cert! haha unbelieveable ehs? thank god my surname is See... if not, i would jus cry. i came back early frm the states jus cos of convo. and if i missed it, i would never forgive myself.

Next is the beginning of a total new chap in my life-work. Even tdy, the truth has yet to sink in... i still cannot believe that i am now a working adult in the coporate world. at times i really feel small and helpless. never realised how protected i was in the past... but luckily, up till tdy, there has always been ppl there to help me in times of need. maybe my guardian angle is really looking after me. Now, i am starting to believe in Luck. it is really impt... if not given the chance to prove urself, even the most zai person will remain a nobody in this ruthless corporate world. and if unlucky enuff, you may be stabbed to death without even noeing it. Scary as it seems, welcome to the coporate world - where your best friend may just be ur greatest enemy. wahaha...

Though some things will never change, but as a whole, i think i have really changed. matured a hell lot and starting to see things frm a diff angle. beginning to look for things that once never ever crossed my mind and getting much more independent.. all this for the better or worse, i dun have an answer. sometimes being independent is no gd. when i need someone to love me and show concern, no one is there. maybe its time to find that somebody?? haha, i really dunno. i have learnt that for some things, there can never be an answer. and others are better left unknown, especially if you dun wish to noe the answer. then again, avoiding the issue will only create more problems... tough issues here, but i guess its time to learn to face my problems...

in the coming year i only hope to focus on wad i want. to actually KNOW wad i want. to put in more effort on the things tt i care abt. and to be PUNCTUAL!!! wahaha... this is my biggest prob. i am NEVER on time. sheesh.... to everyone, i promise i try not to be late!! but pls dun scold me jus becos i am 5 mins late yar?? hahaha... Happy New Year everyone!!

Finally, time for me to blog on my D&D experience. My first ever in the coporate world and it was really an eye opener! sheesh, who would have expected that auditors are such happening ppl?!?! ok so maybe i should be reconsidering my career options... hahaha...

Anyways, d&d this year was held at Swissotel, and i wonder how much money was pumped in sia... the nite began with a bang of fireworks... stunning! and i was too stunned to react.. so no photo of tt. hahaha. and not to mention there were more than 100 tables, countless cartons of wine and beer and the lucky draw top prize was $5000 travel vouchers!! I wan!! Miss the States!!! but too bad i din win. hee... why dun the partners consider waiving dnd and increasing my salary and bonus?? wahahaha

Table photo with our country managing partner. Everyone says this is a very serious shot, like those traditional family photos, cos the guys look so tensed... haha

::Posing with our wine glasses ::

The food wasn't fantastic at all.. sobs. ok, maybe its becos it was cold... as us performers were not at out table to enjoy the food while it is served. all i had was the cold dish (which was good) and then it was prep and gettin ready for show time. when we were finally done, our entire table was covered with plates of food!! hee what a sight!! the shark's fin really has fins! and not the pathetic amount that we have during norm occasions. see, told you audit firms are rich... its time to increase our salaries!!! wahaha. but other than that, the other dishes cannot make it leh. cold and kinda disgusting... eekkss...

As new A1s, it is always a tradition to put up a skit during d&d... the prize? $2,000 for the winning team!! after weeks and weeks of rehearsals and practice, this was the day... but oh well, though we din come up tops in the end, the experience was wad mattered the most. although d&d is now over, the friendships formed will remain and that's wad matters... =)

The cast and dancers....


For me, D&D always equals insane photo-taking session! hee. took almost 100 photos in all... horrible sia. and to think i look the same in all of them! wahaha next time i should jus take one of myself and superimpose my frens in. lalalala..

...With my seniors...

On the whole, dnd was really fun and an eye opener for me, esp frm the things i saw After the dinner... hahaha shall not say much here if not i will be accused of leaking internal infomation? whahaa... looking fwd to the next one but wait, will there even be one for me? hmmss... we shall see...

My D&D photos!!! blog post coming up soon... when i have more time to do one... hee =)

Ever wondered wad u want in ur life? why is it that you are doing wad you are doing now? somehow, such thoughts are beginning to hit me now. have you ever been in a situation where you thought u made a right decision but later regret making that decision? that's life. we can never expect what is gonna be thrown at us next...

its beginning to hit me that i am actually growing up. the stuffs i think about, the things i do, the people i meet, the conversations i have, all these little things really make me feel like i've grown up. no longer the little ger, living in my own little world.. (then again, i was never exactly a little ger... haha, but that's for another time)i realised tt i have been so protected and loved by the people around me and when i enter the real world, i can't help but feel lost. but i am growing to understand, to see what the real world is like and how scary it can be.

During school days, we only worried about projects and exams... now you worry abt not meeting work deadlines, screwing up your work, financial issues, investment issues... OMG i feel so old.

In the past we worry abt BGR, now we think about whether we are wif the right guy, marriage and even retirement... i jus feel... old! and troubled and occupied. as though there are 101 issues waiting to be resolved. and there just ain't enough time to address everyone of them. relationships are the worst. i mean not jus BGR but working relationships, friendships and family.

imagine if you are like me, offend your boss w/o even noeing, then life is gonna be tough! luckily, things are beginning to get better. my boss is beginning to be nicer to me... maybe it was jus a little misunderstanding altogether, or maybe my boss is jus weird... wahaha. and seriously, there's alot of back stabbing in the working world. not that i have encountered any yet but i noe there is... tons and tons of gossips flying around. you'll never noe when a friend may turn on you. so yups, it is that bad... and scary... gotta learn to watch wad u say... esp for straight-fwd ppl like myself. wun even noe that u offended others.. and the worst are those that pretend to be ur fren and then betray you by telling on you. cannot stand those kinda ppl! but yes, they do exist. so its hard to differentiate friend form foes... scary...

BGR, another headache. Seriously, i think its really hard to find true love anymore... guys are not after love but *ahem* and people are unsure abt wad they want (myself included)... its no longer i'm marrying you cos i love you, but becos it happens to be you at the right time. and that is really sad... i'm not saying this applies to everyone cos i myself am also still searching for wad ppl call true love, but seriously, is there such a thing to begin with? and if there isn't such a thing, wad am i searching for? so issit really better jus to remain single? well, i'm enjoying it. although i do noe that things may not be as simple as i wish they would be...

family... when we were young, we never understood all those brainless family squabbles. but now, i am beginning to understand that money is really the root of all evil. it can really tear a family apart... and how many people quarrel becos of money? countless... and why? cos people are just greedy and always chasing after material needs. to the extent they forget the true meaning of being a family and can even betray each other... (to those guilty, some self-reflection is needed at this point, although i dun think you will ever read this.) i'm jus glad none of these probs have affected my own family.

I dun wanna grow up!! hahaha, i'm jus being a big baby...

ehs... i realised tt my blog is starting to have alot of pop-ups. so i shall apologise for tt. i have totally NO idea where they came frm.... so pls keep your pop-up blockers on when visting... sorry for any inconvenience caused. wahahaha...

if anyone happens to noe how to remove the stupid pop ups pls let me noe... i will do my best to remove them. but then again, i am a computer idiot. so pls pardon me dumbness... whahaa. speaking of me being a computer idiot, i dun understand why some ppl jus dun get hints! its so damn obvious i dun like you can? in fact its so obvious everyone dun like you can? so why do u keep coming to pester us like a irritating fly?? sighs... the fly asked me some computer qn which i totally dun understand... so i told him i am a computer idiot, dun ask me anything to do wif computers... the next thing you know, he comes and ask me another computer qn. this time more dumb than the first. he asked me how to copy and paste excel to word doc. hmms... select then "copy" and "paste". if it doesn work how in the world will i noe why? it always works for me mah... so so duh!!

irritating ppl somehow jus dun noe they are irritating. or maybe i'm jus not mean enough?? hmms... it time not to be too nice anymore...