I'm so bored now!! tons of things to do but not in a mood to anything... I jus wanna go on holis!! sighs... why do weekends coma and go this fast?? Looking fwd to the next weekend. Gd fri weekend, time to meet up wif the gers. sighs... so sad tt we can't get to go to batam in the end... much needed break lehs... now gotta wait 2 more mths for the next break for the real break. sighs.. realised i have been sighing alot lately.. getting old maybe? hahas.

New job, new client, new ppl, new environment. finally outta banyan. but one thing remains the same: disgusting work hours!! wahaha... that aside, i seriously heart my client! damn nice!! never seen a better client before. wadever you wan, she will give it to u... and i get to see cute pilots! OMG! i sound totally hau-chi now... but there is really ALOT of pilots lehs... then again, it IS a pilot training sch, so wad am i toking abt? hohoho.. my clients tell me to open my eyes wider and search for a good pilot. wahaha, no such luck man. i somehow repel good guys. haha, this is called my fate. so i shall not bother looking anymore. come wad may...

then again, i dun even have enuff time to find invoices, how to look for pilot? sighs... this was wad i told my client. then guess wad? she got a pilot to find all my invoices for me!! haa damn nice hors? super nice pilot as well... help me find then still OT to wait for me to finish looking then put back for me. OMG! where to find such client?? so i should not be complaining really. but still? work till 3am on fri lehs... ok lar, but good view so dun complain lors.. haha... canteen auntie even funnier, ask me if i'm married?!?!? and refuse to believe i am unattached. her reason: i look like someone with a good life. she claims she noes fortune telling.. hmmss... but life hasn't been easy lately... hopefully it will start to pick up yars?? hee...

Realised that i haven't charged a single cent to my cards this up to this month. Guess i have been too depressed to spend? even with the announcement of our interim bonus, i couldn't find the happiness to go on my routine retail therapy. but after much thought i have decided to snap out of my unhappiness. why should i be unhappy? its not anyone's fault. that aside, i decided to think of how to spend my interim bonus instead.

First stop: www.coach.com !! wahaha... after not buying any coach back from the States, i TOTALLY regret!!! so its time to buy now! then again, with my miserable interim bonus, what can i buy?? Should i....


dump my whole interim bonus into:


OR this:

Or should i just spend part of my bonus on:

Or should i save all of it and spend it on holidays? But, even if i buy by coach i will still go on holi wad... Taiwan, Hong Kong, Phuket, Bali!! haha, where to find money to go to so many places and still buy coach? then again, where got so much time in the first place?? My schedule is disgusting can?!?!

holi is a MUST!! esp when my booking got extended for another 3 weeks. my first break is effectively in June!! #$%^#*%$ The only consolation is that i get to see many many pilots for the next 3 weeks... hohoho... really ALOT of pilots sia... ok wait, they are pilots-to-be. now still training... lalala. this brings back my childhood ambition of wanting to be an air stewardess. too bad my mum didn't allow me to pursue my childhood dream... or maybe its time to leave audit and give it a shot? haha, never knew that audit could give me new found motivation to pursue my dreams...

My client for the entired during of the audit peak! Everytime i tell people i'm on Banyan they go "Banyan?!?! so lucky can stay in their expensive resorts... well, no such luck my dear frens. cos firstly, there are no resorts in Singapore. Secondly, independence issues lar! auditors are not suppose to receive gifts of more than $200. one nite in ANY banyan resort is like $500?? so yar, stop telling me i am lucky to do banyan -_-"

But i do get to see many many big big pictures of Banyan resorts lar... like tt can? happy?? anyone can jus go online to see the pictures too wad. so no, banyan got no incentives ok? dun even have discounts can?? ohh, but my senior and AM did get to go to Banyan Tree Bangkok when they were there for review.. and they can actually eat at ANY restuarant within the hotel. which means, they could eat at VERTIGO!!! shuang rite? but they didn't lor... -_-

SOOO pretty rite?? I WAN TO GO!!! the view is splendid can? not really bothered abt the food though. i mean its damn ex lar, so the food can't be bad... but the experience is jus awww.... then again, the company matters too lar... i can understand why they din go up lor... two guys up there?? erms.... hahaaa...



More pictures... hee... see liao then feel like gg.... i wan to go on holis~ but my leave is in 2 mths time?!?! sobs....

直到爱消失你才懂得
去珍惜身边每个
美好风景
只是她早已离去

直到你想通她早已经
不再对你留恋
最后的你
开始了一段挣扎

你那么爱她
为甚么不把她留下
为甚么不说心里话
你深爱她
这是每个人都知道啊

你那么爱她
为甚么不把她留下
是不是你有深爱的
两个她
所以你不想再让自己
无法自拔

jus thought that this song totally suits my preaching of no regrets. yups, so put in effort to pursue wad you truely love. dun ever let urself regret cos you didn't put in enuff effort. all will be too late then...

the past week has been an emotional rollercoaster. for once i ended work early most of the week, but it was bad. i needed to numb myself with work, to get my mind off everything. ending early means alot of time to think. to feel sore and let my emotions get the better of me. grabbing only 3 to 4 hrs a sleep a day, one can only imagine how tired i was the whole week. but i numbed myself with work. work was the only thing that could stop me from thinking. but that meant my brain didn't stop thinking. didn't stop working....

it all began with a sudden urge to complain. i really thought i was over it but somehow i asked you out for coffee... total wrong move! one event led to another and before i knew it, tueday's lunch was inevitable.

tuesday's lunch was info overload. maybe i shouldn't have probed. if only i didn't, then i wouldn't be in this shit. but then wad will happen if i didn't? i dunnoe... no more 'if's... its time to move on and not look back. sry i made you worried, i did tt on purpose... i was so angry i guess i lost my senses. my best fren is so right, i was more angry than anything.

wed was horrible. ended work at 7 and i couldn't make myself not think. so i met my beloved sis. realised that the both of us are in the same situation. hence, you can totally understand how i feel. love u babe. deep inside we noe tt regardless of wad ppl say, the decision lies with ourselves. so as usual, there was no conclusion, even at 4am but somwhow i made a decision. sry i made u stay up...

thurs was the WORST!! i couldn't even numb myself with work. and i guess it is fated that i typed in the wrong screen... and so i decided to tok to you. i knew toking to you wun solve my prob and whether to believe you or not, tt's my decision. i trust myself. but somehow, after toking to you, it lightened my load, or maybe it was passed to you?? i dunnoe. i was still confused but tt nite i slept. solid 3.5 hrs of sleep.

fri was my max. i never felt sooo tired before. my brains could not think anymore. i was toking nonsense, made alot of mistakes with my work (sry sup) and jus collasped when i reached home. no energy to even think.

thanks to all those who listened, thanks guys~ babe, i din noe you were gg thru more shit than me. and yet you listened... now i feel as though my probs are so small... i'm sorry. bet you felt like shit when u were toking to me but had to put up a strong front to tok sense into me. i really feel lousy. i dunno wad to tell you other than trust yourself and be happy.. dun try to be fair to everyone, that will never happen. so jus be fair to urself. dun give urself the chance to regret. at the end of the day, at least you tried - that's all that matters.

those who scolded me, i noe you did it for my own gd. to wake me up from my dream. it really doesn feel good to admit i made a wrong decision, to admit i was stupid. and to get scolded is the worst feeling ever. but i thank you guys for letting me noe. and to knock sense into me... and nope, i dun regret wadever i did and i dun blame you. life is such, we learn from everything we do and everything happens for a reason. its jus tt this is something both of us can't find a reason for...

oh well, i think i have a conclusion. but dun ask. let me decide wad to do myself. at the end of the day i will only say the same thing - at least i tried, no regrets...

this post is really not meant to be read. so dun bother reading... dun worry abt me, i will still be the same crappy and cheerful ger. really.

How/why men stay in audit

1. They are emotionless. Can ignore family, girlfriend and frens jus for work.
2. They are total workaholics. No need to eat, sleep or have fun.
3. They have no life.
4. Their only love is SRMs and finding fault in ppl's accounts.
5. They have their wives to look after the family.
6. They let their girlfriends two-time when its audit peak and they have no time for the gf. hohoho...
7. They need to look older cos guys are more childish. hahaha
8. They dun think as much- just stick to their decision.
9. They noe they have the upper hand over women.
10. 8 out of 10 accounting graduates are women. need i say more?

How/why women stay in audit
1. They are damn lucky-never kena any shit job.
2. They are single. No other commitments.
3. Their bf/husband is also an auditor. then wun complain during audit peak.
4. Never have kids and marry a fellow auditor.
5. They have more male hormones than a norm woman. hahaha~

Why women CANNOT stay in audit
1. They are emotional creatures. they need time wif family and frens.
2. They need to feel loved by people. Not hated by clients.
3. They need to take care of the kids - cos their husbands are auditors.
4. Late nights are bad for the skin. They need their beauty sleep
5. 1 yr in audit = look 5 yrs older.
6. They are already more mature than guys, dun need to look older as well.
7. They love their social life
8. They love make-up but long hrs wif make-up on clogs the pores.
9. They hate tuas and love civilisation.
10. Bascially, they are not guys. hahaha~

Conclusion?
See the diff?? tt's why auditing is a guy's job... More proof needed? well it explains why there are more male partners than female despite there being much much more female accounting grads every yr. hoho...