BORED!!! stuck alone at client's and lunching alone seriously sux! i'm just someone who cannot be alone i guess. will start to think of nonsense when i am alone... sudden urge to blog. maybe its my emotions again, issit the time of the month again?? wahaha...

seems like i have been really indecisive recently. i really thought i knew what i wanted and what i was looking for. but no, things just have to change last min and i find myself unable to make the decision that i so strongly felt for a min ago. i was so determined to leave you and return to my own life, but no, things have to go back to wad it is now. i dun understand how i could actually condone all the nonsense you threw at me, its just not me. but somehow i did and that's why we are where we are. i was so going to change to a new working environment, interviews and all... but nope, the firm had to raise my pay and the other party had to offer me no matching incentives. sighs... seems to be that after going one big round, i am still back to where i started. BAH!! worst still, the entire cycle of my stupid job is beginning again! nitemare!!! i wan out!

sighs... guess this is wad it means when people say life is a box of chocs, cos we never noe what we will get.