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Monday, May 21, 2007

innocent until proven guilty
i noe it is not my fault... but somehow i feel responsible. i question myself, why should i be responsible for sins that i didn commit?? esp when i should actually be the one who is crying? why why why?? all becos my character is stronger?? jus becos i am cleverer?? or is it jus becos i jus noe you too well... and that i am willing to accept u the way u are? how silly can one get? to make ur problem my problem? to solve ur problem? to go thru shit tt is suppose to be urs? to help someone and yet feel guilty? i noe i asked for this. if only i learnt not to ask. i was suppose to learn!!! it happened once but yet i made the same mistake again... why why why?? a thousand and one whys. with only one ans: i had to prove myself right.

why can't i jus accept tt my 6th sense is always right? i had to confirm. frens has always been my weakest spot. i know it. but yet i allowed myself to get involved. everytime i try to help, things turn bad. i am truely trying to help. i wanted you to know the truth. to wake up from ur dream. but i could not do it when i saw how devasted you were. both of u mean alot to me. i cannot spoil your image, neither can i break ur heart. i chose to comfort you as though i din noe anything. it was really hard... but this is all i can do for u. i hope u understand. i noe when u noe the truth, u will blame me. i will too if i were in ur shoes. but i hope you understand. i cannot tell u the whole truth. u are not able to take it. hence i chose to do wad i thought is the best for u. i tried to tell u the truth. i really did. i hinted many times. but ur reaction confirmed that you could not take it. so i could not bear to tell u the truth.

i noe it is your fault. but yet i dun blame you and still chose to share it with u. i dunno why. i jus didn want to spoil ur image. i dun wan u to look bad. so i decided to do it my way. to console you as a fren and not let u noe the truth. becos of this, the ending will not be wad i want. i know. but i still did it. i dunno why. i noe i am the ultimate victim and i should be angry.. but somehow, i am not angry. neither am i sad. neither am i worried. somehow i noe things will work out if we face it tgt. i guess this is my character. always positive.

dun ask me wad this is all abt.. pls. writing is my way to compose my thoughts. and to help myself think. i can't tok abt it for the good of the two ppl tt i treasure. and for those who noe, pls dun bring it up or mention it to anyone. thanks! i will be fine... cos i always will be, tt's me...

♥ The Girl ♥